It’s been just over a month since Östersplayer Oliver Silverholt and partner Natalie lost their unborn child.
Now he talks about grief.
– There were many sleepless nights, he says.
The pregnancy was termination.
Oliver and Natalie’s first child was to be born.
It didn’t turn out that way.
On Sunday, June 26, nine months of wait and see turned into a nightmare.
Oliver Silverholt was training with the team at Växjö when Natalie called and said something wasn’t right. So instead of accompanying the team to the first leg match against BP in Stockholm, I drove It was home to Falkenberg and then straight to BB in Varberg.
The kid was very active in his stomach and kicked a lot, but suddenly there were no more kicks. We went to the BB and did a lot of tests and it turned out that the heart was no longer beating, says Oliver Silverholt.
“I didn’t get it”
Grief and shock were all-encompassing.
– In the first few hours, you did not understand what happened. I just sat and stared at the wall. can not be absorbed. Then you think that it will allow you to go home and have some kind of ground in everything, but then the birth must take place which we, especially Natalie, must go through. It’s pretty crazy, so to speak, but she made it through like a damn champ.
It has been just over a month since the tragedy occurred.
Silverholt first spoke about his grief on the football page at Smålandsposten minboll.se and is now doing so for Sportbladet as well.
– I still don’t know how to deal with grief, but we have to do it together. Oliver says there have been many sleepless nights in recent weeks, but we have so much support from our parents, families and loved ones.
He also said the support was also great in Swedish football.
– Players you’ve only met a few times that you don’t even know have communicated and sent greetings. It’s the little things that help you get through it.
full on bb
The birth was scheduled to take place on June 16, but the days passed without anything happening.
Nathalie has been scheduled to launch on the eve of midsummer (24 June), but full BB occupancy in both Varberg and Halmstad means it has to be pushed back until Monday, 27 June.
On Sunday, 26th the child died.
– We had a lot of meetings with the doctors in charge after that, and then it became very clear that this might not have happened if it had started in the middle of summer. Of course, Oliver says, it was very hard to hear.
How was it for Natalie?
– Too hard. She’s been carrying our baby for nine months and then hasn’t gotten… well, dividends or whatever you want to call it… horrible.
For Oliver himself, football helped the grief work. He’s been back in action since mid-July and has started the last four games.
– It’s good to have something else on your mind for 1.5 hours. Even if you want to push your thoughts away for another 22.5 hours, it’s hard to control the brain. The thoughts come back, but once you get off the field and chase the ball, you think of something completely different. Nice.